ASHAMED and +story

well..this is about S again.. why did i felt so jealous over him when i saw him chit-chatting with another girl....? though i knew he wouldnt care about my feelings?i'm so sick of it...*back to the story* well,now that i knew very well that i like him and the fact that i persuaded him to be my couple is downright humiliating,,i know i shouldnt felt this way but i just couldnt help it..it just...it wasnt me like me actually to be begging and confessing silly things to a guy that likes-me-but-want-me-to-be-his-friend...DUHH MANN!!! u gotta be EXTRA carefull babe..boys(or men)are cowards these days..they apparently want us so bad they literally die if we kiss somebody else,but they are too AFRAID of being rejected and in the end get CHICKENED OUT by the thought of rejection..ohh BOY!! now,dear S..i dont think that our friendship could last longer..thank GOD(alhamdulillah)i wont be seeing u again for some period since we have finished our school..if not,i might break down BIG TIME and then ruins my pretty image,appearance and stuff*haha..not to be trusted ^_^*
so this entry is simply to say GOODBYE BABY..*suddenly hears Avril Lavigne's GOODBYE song*

i LOVE u BIG TIME (also SCREWED UP big time) so here is THE ULTIMATE END for our never-gonna-be-the-same friendship..*so much for friendshio ast forever..huh?* ANNYONG!!

so now to the " +story "
i ALREADY has a BOYFRIEND..huhu i am single but not until recently..i guess i'm too lonely for my own good..he is my friend since forever*literally*..but the weird thing is i dont fell asleep thinking about him but (yea :( ..) i was thinking 'bout S ..i know i'm sort of a playgirl(not anymore though ^_^)but i just couldnt help it..hehe*wicked-but-polite laugh* so to Mr. B..thanks for having me as ur girl..
#dont ask me 'bout how i felt towards Mr. B yet..i'm still thinking and re-thinking 'bout it now *peace&love*

to my(eternity and infinity)husband..Mr. Lee Dong Wook..MUCH love and kisses for you..*muacks..mmwuahh*

xOxO bye lovelies