
so...well..urm...yepp..i guess those quotes are true..well you see..i lived in a quite conservative family,so i dont have any closed boyfriends enough to be called THE boyfriend..but recently,my friend(yes,a BOY) had confessed to me that he liked me..and then i was like...OOHHH YYEEEAAHHH!!! u know,the feelings of gushy-thingy u felt when ur crush ask u out *_* btw...yeahh..im so on cloud 9 that i couldnt help smiling all the time and for the first time ever..i couldnt sleep..(because of happy feelings,.not because of homework)..since he doesnt has a cellphone,our medium is through FACEBOOK.i excitedly waited for him..thinking that it is possible that he might wanna us to be a couple..but u know..im so heartbroken when he said he still want us to be FRIENDS..ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? (he did asked me whether we should couple beforehanded) DUH!! i felt so stupid..stupid becos i waited for him to be online until i fell asleep and THIS was what i get as a reward...im so overflown by emotions that i wanted to cry so bad!!but hardly i shed a tear,,i dont know,but i seemed to be a tough girl after all..
i still begged him to accept me but he didnt want to.he said that we have been friends for 5 years,how could we be couple now?what will our friends think of us when they know we are an item?for some reasons,i couldnt help but to think that he is stupid for considering others in this matters(eventhough,he is one of the school's best student)i was thoroughly overwhelmed by his decision,he said he wanted me so bad,but in the same time guilty over our friends..i couldnt bear with him any longer so i just off my fb chat..later on..he apologised and confessed the most sweetest thing ever(for me at least),......he had this huge crash for me since we first met..and that was 5 years ago!!he even still remembered my ex's name from 5 years ago!!!! oh boy...u r so romantic(again..for me at least)..but he still strongly insisted that we still be FRIENDS,not COUPLE...
though im so BROKENHEARTED,i accept him decision..it aint no good after all for both of us if i kept going against it..well..i guess LOVE just doesnt goes pretty well with my pretty face*heck yeahh*
but i'll regret it forever if our friendship ended just becos of this silly lovey-dovey-thingy thing.throughout the years,we were a pretty amazing friends...i had lost him as my not-gonna-be-boyfriend,i wont lost him as my great friends,i'll make sure of that..UNLESS,he doesnt want it...huhu
well..here is the thing,,,
to my boy S. I LOVE YOU
xOxO